7/12/25 - Bad Mood Forever, Still Have Things I Need To Do.
I've been really low energy lately. I have been working on my modding projects still, just slowly. It took more effort than usual to get up today. I think having things to do is helping a little bit, it's just that being depressed doesn't go away the moment you decide to try to be productive.
I don't even know why I've felt so bad lately, it's just kind of how I've always been. I'm worried that everyone around me thinks I enjoy being like this when I really, really don't. It is what it is. I wish the job market wasn't so horrible right now. With my mental state, I'm basically never going to get hired. I'll manage, I guess. I know my mother doesn't want to kick me out because the last time she kicked a family member out he killed himself. I just wish I didn't have to live off of other people's pity.
Back to the modding talk, though, it's kind of a struggle to make playable levels that aren't boring and/or frustrating to traverse. It's something I've struggled with for around five years at this point. I don't think it gets much easier. I'll figure it out enough to get something playable made, I hope.
I really wish I had images to post this time, but there's nothing I can share publically about what I'm working on that I didn't show last time. Page looks really empty without that space being filled. Whatever, I guess.